It's 3 a.m.  and I am sitting here, unable to sleep.  She has been falling down lately.   For some reason, Truffles has been having dizzy spells.  The other day, I was giving her a bath and she fell on top of me.  I was scratching her face and she was moving her head up and down as I rubbed. After I stopped and moved back to her side she began acting like there was a fly bothering her face and then her feet began scrambling on the mats in the wash rack.  Then she fell. She trapped me up against the wall and fought to get back up.  Once she got up, she looked at me as if to say, "What happened?"  Neither of us were hurt but it was kind of scary.

I talked to my veterinarian today and we don't know what is causing this.  I believe she is declining.  I don't know how much more time I will have with her.  She takes forever to eat, now, and is on medicines for Cushing's Disease and for her thyroid.  I, obviously, will never get to ride her again and will wait until the bad days outweigh the good ones.  But, I don't think the prognosis is good.  I don't know if her new symptoms have anything to do with the hyoid disease.  We are not going to put her through anything more surgeries.   I am so disappointed and sad and tired.  I just don't have a good feeling about this.  I have tried everything and don't know what else to do.  I don't know if it is the medicine or something new with the Cushing's.

 I can't be the only person in the world going through this.  I wish I had someone to talk to about this.  I am writing this blog to be a comfort to others who are going through all this.  I don't feel that I have been very comforting.  I worry that you will not put your horse through the surgery because whatever she is going through right now may discourage you.  Every horse is different.  All respond in their own way.  I hope my next post is 10 years from now and tells you that she is fine.  Picture us riding off into the sunset.............................