sigh..............

Today her eye looked a little dry and cloudy and she was blinking it with her third eyelid a lot.  That kind of made me cry.  I am so tired of her not feeling well.  I am tired of her struggling to get better.  She still has a stinking staff infection under her chin and we are still treating it with SMZs and a new medicine that we jam up into the little hole under her chin where the infection is trying to drain.  It is a medicine for dairy cows and I hope it works because the alternative would be IV treatments twice a week. $$$$$ If I had any savings, it would be far gone by now. And retirement, you say,  well that is just myth now.  I will take me years to pay everything off.  I guess I am just a little depressed right now.  My only "happy place" outlet was riding my horse now that is on hold and my "happy place"  ain't so happy right now. It is just work and worry. :(